Camila Cabello explains how fans have seen her glamour and say, “If you look at the pictures I’ve posted on Instagram over the last year, you’ll find pictures of me writing in the studio, pictures in a hallway in a bomb-dot-com outfit before going onstage to perform, pictures of me cuddled up with my dog, Eugene, on a couch, and pictures of me bursting with excitement to play you my music.” She further adds what fans haven’t seen about here because that’s not been put on social media.
“But here’s what there aren’t pictures of from the last year: me crying in the car talking to my mom about how much anxiety and how many symptoms of OCD I was experiencing. My mom and me in a hotel room reading books about OCD because I was desperate for relief. Me experiencing what felt like constant, unwavering, relentless anxiety that made day-to-day life painfully hard,” she says.
Camila Cabello admitted she felt hesitant and embarrassed of speaking about her anxiety but she was constantly hurting inside and eventually, she realized that in order to overcome her anxiety, she needed to talk about it and get help. “Denying my suffering and berating myself didn’t help things. I needed to say those three revolutionary words: I need help,” she wrote.
She further described how OCD messed up her mind. “OCD is not how it’s stereotyped, like, She’s so OCD about her desk being organized, etc. OCD can take many different forms, and for me, it was obsessive thoughts and compulsive behaviors, Camila explained. “To put it simply, it made me feel like my mind was playing a cruel trick on me. It affected me physically, too. I couldn’t sleep for a long time, I had a constant knot in my throat, I had chronic headaches, and my body went through what felt like multiple roller-coaster rides every day,” she added.